My mom knows my results and everything I share on my last post ......
I really don't like my family members read my blog ......
Hate it really much indeed....
But what can I do ?
Nothing but to stop posting what I really want to post ......
Diary ?
That doesn't works for me .....
I like sharing with everyone....
I hope everyone who reads my post will share my feelings for everything .....
I want to tell everyone about myself ......
But just not my family ....
They will never understand me ......
Never ....
Maybe they scold and shout at me for my own good.....
Really ?
Is it that bad ? My results ?
You ask me to tell my mom about the History right ?
She knew? So what ?
She doesn't even compliment me .....
Is it really that easy to get A in that subject? No right ? Not everyone got 90 in History .....
But I got 93 .....and guess what she says ?
She just shout and says that I just need to memorize for History ....It's easy to get A.....
Yeah I know , dear mom , you're good at everything and you get As for every subject....
Why can't she accept that ......her daughter is no genius .....
Really ....
I want to get high marks in Maths and Science too ....
I've tried my best but I just can't .....
She can't see the subjects I've improve, her eyes just ....just...open for those which I get low marks ....
Is every mom the same ?
I really don't think so .....
You didn't even buy me this laptop....
Now ...
I'm a little regret now .....
That I've got this laptop....
That I've made promises that I can't keep....
I should never take this laptop from my uncle.....
I should never touch/watch/listen/.. anything that's related to Korea ......
Having a laptop just make going online watching dramas , and facebook even easier than ever .....
But now , my mom knows everything ....
Going online chatting and watching dramas can be like underground activities this few month.....
I really doubt that I can get full As in both exams this time ......
Do not ever has any high expectations on me .......
It's really stressful....too stressful....
And if I didn't get the results you expect me to get , I might kill myself .......
Am I really a bad person ?
I won't treat my family as nice as I treat my friends.....
Especially my brother .....
or my mom ...
I will go completely crazy if my mom shout at me / scold me....
I throw things , I lock doors , and everything you can't imagine I will do ,
I've done it all....
Can't imagine me doing those , can you my friends ?
I will shout too when I'm angry .....
I came from a shouting family , so how can I not know how to shout ?
Haiz....
Just don't ever get me on my bad side .....
I just want to be good .....
To everyone To my family To my friends .....
If my family can change all their bad habits and instead denying their own wrong doings/says that I've no right to teach them what to do ,they will admit them and says sorry and try to change them ......
I swear I will treat them like how I treat my friends and I swear I will break all my bad habits .....
Really .....
Goodnight
