Yesterday was pretty good.
I have had fun with two of my friends who came over to my house for the first time.
Before they came , I've planned to gamble or watch scary movies to spend the time.
However , things doesn't always goes as I planned .
We ended up playing barbies .
Eh , no , hehe..
Instead of doing whatever I've planned .
I've had them invested our time in beautifying......ourselves.
No, we didn't makeup or anything .
As one of them dolled herself up before coming to my house.
I put on "a little" after taking my bath and preparing food for them .
The other one is not used to these kind of stuffs so she didn't yet beautify her face :p
I'm really interested in curling my hair these days .
I've just came across this hair curler which has been lying in my mom's cupboard after being used once or twice .
Then , I just took it out and started curling my friend's hair .
I don't know how I did it .
I've actually successfully made her looking like a....... ahjumma :'D
The curling effect look pretty good on me , I thought it would look as well on everyone else.
I look very korean girl-ish . *where did I find so much confidence ?* :'D
I love it so much that I really would sacrifice my sleep and wake up early everyday just to get my hair curled. :p
Call it
hiao or whatever you want .
But really , I have nobody to
hiao to .
Whatever I've done to make myself look good was just to boost my self confidence.
If you know me well enough .
You'd know that I have really low self-esteem .
I cannot get myself to smile naturally in front of a camera every time as I've had myself convinced that my face looks fat whenever I smile .
Selfies tho , is a different matter .
'Cause angles can really make one look different.
and taking selfies is just all about angles ,.
Now back to yesterday.
It really is not as bad as I thought it would be.
Well, with that girl around , things can never be awkard.
'Cause she's just too hyper.
She will try to be cheerful and lively just to make everyone happy.
Although sometimes too exaggerated , ...and sometimes even I don't know how to respond to her
Being that way too is her flaw..
She looks really happy every time I see her and I even thought of her as the most cheerful girl I've ever met.
But sadly , I failed as a friend as I didn't know that her cheerfulness was not her real feelings.
Anyways , I was really worried back then .
But now that she's in the process of getting better , I'm feeling much more relieved.
I don't know why , but she's one of the rare friends that's able to make me worry for them.
I guess that means that she's in my important friends list then haha.
Well , anyways.
I never knew that I have this kind of personality .
Worrying for other people other than myself.
Ever since puberty strucks me , I've been as rebellious as ever.
I even thought that perhaps I am the rebirth of a devil.
Since , all I did back then was just making everyone who cared about me sad.
It's not that , I'm a good kid now .
But since I've made an effort in self improving .
I guessed I can say that I'm much better than the me who knew nothing but throwing tantrums , threatening others by running away.
heh , I was that bad .
Omg , what am I writing about now . =.=
Ok , back to yesterday .
Although having the longest hair amongst us three , and despite her being the shortest .
She's really fun yesterday .
Yesterday was really different with the other outings I've had with her.
I can be myself yesterday .
There's not a single moment spent with me not being myself.
Maybe it's because yesterday was mainly about dolling up , desserts , and selfies.
Or maybe , I've finally learnt how to be less oversensitive.
Her being around yesterday was pretty fun , and I like it.
We met Cinderella and her Prince, took pictures , ate lotsa desserts , and despite I've wasted lotsa money on buying useless stuffs , yesterday was good.
I'm glad I've invited them over to my house .
I'm glad that others couldn't make it to that outing .
Hehe..
My weekend is really well spent thanks to them .
Arigatou ...
This is a really long post .
Mainly because I felt like writing.
And also this post is just to make up for the guilt of not posting for so many weeks.
sigh ..
His genes after all .
No matter how I tried , I just can't get the lazy genes off me ...urgh.
Tomorrow is the day when the results will be known .
Am I nervous :
Not really .
Am I scared :
Yes.
I'm really scared that I will let anyone down .
I don't want that.
I think I will cry if that ever happens.
But what's the use of crying when whatever has happened already happen.
So , instead of crying , I hope I can find the strength to stand up again .
Instead of falling to the pits , I hope I can climb to a much higher position .
Stay Strong Jasmine Kit .
Gambateh . :(
