Lame post * Title-less *

Say !
I actually know myself quite well..
The fact that I've said I didn't believe myself in my last post is quite the proof.

this has 75% of chance of achieving 

Do I look like I'm someone who will make an extra effort to realize the resolution they make themselves ?
Will you believe me if I say I AM ?

Well ahah I even limit my resolution to make it more achievable tsktsk
what ?
Ah ~ the kind of 'human being' who talk big but no action.
I remind myself of my detestable 'father'.
G A R B A G E

To reduce the similarity between me and my so called 'father'
I've decided to blog today .

So .
I feel like further stressing about my reasons of not updating hmm..
'Cause it will eventually get into the main topic of this post .

It's not like I don't want to update ...
It's just that I .... don't really have the time to do so !
Blogging is not something can just be done THAT easily .
It can't be done even if you have the time.
Getting into the mood is also one important factor .
idek whether what I'm saying is a fact or just BS

By now , you must've known what's my excuse :p

Tbh last week I can squeeze time to blog , but I didn't do so because I don't feel like it.
Especially after a long day WORKING .
I swear working is every bit as hard as studying .
Or maybe HARDER .
Now I finally understand what my mom always say when I was young =.=
Back then I used to think that what's so hard about working that one will get so stress everyday
Now that I've experience that myself .
I can absolutely understand the feeling .
After being so careful everyday at your work place to prevent yourself from getting scold by your boss , when you reach home one must've wanted to relax .
But then your mother comes and annoy the shit out of you by shouting about some tiny problems.
Anyone in their right mind will definitely get annoyed .
Isn't that so ?

Well idk if that applies to anyone other than me .
I was REALLY annoyed when my grandma shout at me when I came back from office urgh.


I cannot continue this post anymore I'm really sorry .
I just came back from hard labour today !!
I felt really bad that this turns out to be a really shitty post :(
I'm tired. So tired that I can sleep right away if I am lying on my bed right now .
Please. Excuse .Me.
Do consider this post as an example of what happens if I force myself to blog when I am physically and mentally tired .
Idek what this post is about..
I'm sorry .
Goodnight.
I really need to cut some slack for myself .
I actually get two jobs and I work 7 days in a week .
5 days office work and 2 days hard labour.
Why am I torturing myself like that .
I didn't know I was feeling so miserable about working on weekends until the tears fall .
I really felt miserable looking at people having fun when I am working ....